See my previous message I sentt in response to your message. I didn't see this prior to my response.
I feel for you right now, I really do. I know it is very difficult! I've been there! But it is something that you can achieve. It will take a lot of work, will power and discipline, but trust me, it will be SO worth the effort!
Try going to http://www.pkunews.org. They have some cookbooks on their website. One is similiar to the one I used during my second pregnancy. There is also a recipe tab on this site that has some good information on there, too. I have an old recipe book from my first pregnancy from 1992-1993 that has some formula recipes in them. I can forward to you if you like.
Take one day at a time, and keep going at it. You will do fine.