Well we went In not knowing what was going to happen, going in to see a new doctor and going in for a 45 min ultrasound. We got to see the baby and all of its brain and heart. Then the ultrasoundist says your having a girl! I teared up, Thinking come on there cant be anything wrong with her!!! She is moving, you can see her looking at her hand! After that Ray huged me and said were having a little girl! The new doctor came in and said She has a 95% chance of being severly mentaly retarted, also having a bad heart... They gave us the option of stopping the pregnacy or keep it going and have a high chance of losing her after she is born... We sat in a room crying for 30 mins then went home. The only thing Ray could say is I love you no matter what, and nothing will change that. We can do this. The rest of the day I cried I couldnt think of one reson to keep her here that wasnt selfish. I dont want her to suffer or have her and hold her and be attached and have the heart break of losing her a day or two after i give birth to her... I grabed Ray and begged him to helped me. He cried with me and said we cant keep her, She will suffer and i cant live with myself watching her live a life on a vent, And I cant lose her after seeing her... So while we waited for any info on help I could feel her kicking, moving and rolling around. I cried and also let my friends feel her... I tried to get Ray to feel her kick but he couldnt. He tears up every time he sees my belly... There was just to much wrong with this pregnacy from the start, I wasnt on my diet the first 5 weeks, I overdoced on vitmin A which causes brain dissorders, Had 2 high levels, and wasnt givin enough info to have a good enough pregnacy by my doctors... Everything is being done on wensday, I'm not looking forward to this at all. I'm making sure I will be knocked out! and I wont remember much of the visit... Maybe In 4 years Ray and i Will try again and It will be succsessful... Thank you everyone who have helped me out and read my baby post I'll still have other post from my life and other things... I'm off to get a tatoo of my babys name Aleah hellen with her ultrasound hand print.