My last baby update... :,(

My last baby update… :,(

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My last baby update… :,(

May 29, 2011 in Uncategorized

Well we went In not knowing what was going to happen, going in to see a new doctor and going in for a 45 min ultrasound. We got to see the baby and all of its brain and heart. Then the ultrasoundist says your having a girl! I teared up, Thinking come on there cant be anything wrong with her!!! She is moving, you can see her looking at her hand! After that Ray huged me and said were having a little girl! The new doctor came in and said She has a 95% chance of being severly mentaly retarted, also having a bad heart... They gave us the option of stopping the pregnacy or keep it going and have a high chance of losing her after she is born... We sat in a room crying for 30 mins then went home. The only thing Ray could say is I love you no matter what, and nothing will change that. We can do this. The rest of the day I cried I couldnt think of one reson to keep her here that wasnt selfish. I dont want her to suffer or have her and hold her and be attached and have the heart break of losing her a day or two after i give birth to her... I grabed Ray and begged him to helped me. He cried with me and said we cant keep her, She will suffer and i cant live with myself watching her live a life on a vent, And I cant lose her after seeing her... So while we waited for any info on help I could feel her kicking, moving and rolling around. I cried and also let my friends feel her... I tried to get Ray to feel her kick but he couldnt. He tears up every time he sees my belly... There was just to much wrong with this pregnacy from the start, I wasnt on my diet the first 5 weeks, I overdoced on vitmin A which causes brain dissorders, Had 2 high levels, and wasnt givin enough info to have a good enough pregnacy by my doctors... Everything is being done on wensday, I'm not looking forward to this at all. I'm making sure I will be knocked out! and I wont remember much of the visit... Maybe In 4 years Ray and i Will try again and It will be succsessful... Thank you everyone who have helped me out and read my baby post I'll still have other post from my life and other things... I'm off to get a tatoo of my babys name Aleah hellen with her ultrasound hand print.

6 Reviews of My last baby update… :,(

  1. Registered: Apr 24, 2009

    Posts: 0

    Cornwall, New York

    I am so sorry to hear this! No matter what you are a great mother and don’t blame yourself for one second on this. A bad mother would not have tried to get back on diet and take care of herself for the sake of the baby’s health. I know that you can get back on diet, get pregnant, and be as happy again! Keep your head up and take care of yourself for your baby. You will have an angel up there looking over you. Much love xo

  2. Registered: May 17, 2011

    Posts: 0

    Mina, South Dakota

    I’m so sorry……………God does all things for a reason. Reason’s we don’t know, but have to trust in him it was for the best. Stay strong and keep your head up……………Thinking of you

  3. Registered: Oct 12, 2010

    Posts: 0

    belfast, INTERNATIONAL

    hope ypu are ok. be brave.

  4. Registered: Jan 16, 2011

    Posts: 0

    Milwaukee, Wisconsin

    God does do this stuff for a reason! Trust me. In a few years you can try again! but rememeber to STAY ON DIET the whole pegrney! okay? Please update on us when you have another baby and it is successful………. and since this was posted 2 weeks ago you prob had her….. is she okay? most important are you okay?

  5. Registered: Jul 1, 2011

    Posts: 0

    sheridan, Indiana

    I understand how your hurting and I even though it’s something I don’t like thinking about at all. I had to terminate a pregnancy because of high PKU levels. It wasn’t planned and it’s been years ago but if you ever want to talk I’m a good listener. Remember that were there’s a door that closes there’s always a window that’s opens. Don’t loose hope. I went on years later and had 2 kids and they’re healthy and normal. No, the pregnancies weren’t planned but I knew I was pregnant within 2 weeks of conception. I’ll pray for you.

  6. Registered: Jun 11, 2010

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    Sittingbourne, INTERNATIONAL

    Oh my goodness I am so sorry sweetie! I was following your story and praying for you. I am crying for you now … sending you my love and best wishes x x x

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