TRYING TO GET BACK ON TRACK

TRYING TO GET BACK ON TRACK

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TRYING TO GET BACK ON TRACK

June 7, 2013 in Uncategorized

                                                                                          I AM WRITING THIS BECAUSE AS SOME OF YOU KNOW THAT I HAVE NOT HAD THE GREATEST YEAR IN THE 2012 YEAR I WAS UNEMPLOYED AND I WAS LOOKING FOR WORK AND JUST HOME AND DEPRESSED WELL I DECIDED THAT I WAS GOING TO TRY KUVAN . THIS WAS A HARDER THING BECAUSE I WAS DOING EVERYTHING ON MY OWN . MY PARENTS BOTH WORKED . MY GRANDPA CAME OVER ONE DAY TO DO SOME WORK IN OUR HOUSE AND HE DIDNT LOOK GOOD THAT THERE WAS SOMETHING WRONG . WELL M MOM SAID WHATS WRONG DAD AND HE SAID THAT HE WAS HAVING A HARD TIME WITH SWALLOWING ANYTHING . SO MY MOM IS A CNA ( CERTIFIED NURSING ASSISTANT ) AND SHE ASKED HOW LONG THIS WAS GOING ON AND HE SAID THAT IT JUST STARTED THE NIGHT BEFORE  SO MY MOM TOLD HIM TO GO HOME AND CALL HIS DOCTOR . IT TURNED OUT AFTER SOME TEST WERE DONE THAT HE HAD STAGE 4 LUNG CANCER AND THROAT CANCER . I AM ON MY KUVAN TRIAL AND THEY ARE VERY STRICKT ABOUT THIS DRUG . MY HEART JUST DROPPED I WAS SO UPSET BECAUSE I HAD JUST LOST MY MIMI ( MY DADS MOM ) TO BLADDER CANCER AND KNOW I AM THINKING THAT I AM GOING TO LOOSE MY GRANDPA TO . I WAS STILL TRYING KUVAN THOUGH I DID NOT WANT TO GIVE UP ON IT . IT WAS IMPORTANT TO ME TO TAKE THIS EVERYDAY . BUT THINGS GOT ROUGH BECAUSE WE TOOK IN MY GREAT GRANDMA BRIDGETTE AND SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND  . I LOVED HER TO DEATH . SHE WAS STUBBURN AS ALL HELL . I LOVED HER AND I WAS THE ONE THAT WAS TAKING CARE OF HER WHEN MY MOM AND DAD WERE WORKING BECAUSE SHE WAS LIVING WITH MY GRANDPA . THEY HAD TO SEND HER TO OUR HOUSE BECAUSE THERE WAS ALWAY SOMEBODY THERE . MY GRANDMA HAD TO TAKE MY GRANDPA TO THE DOCTOR ALOT FOR CHEMO AND SOMETIME THAT WOULD TAKE SEVRAL DAYS . I AM WRITING THIS AND TEARS ARE RUNNING DOWN MY FACE BECAUSE I KNOW THAT MY MY GRANDPA IS PROUD OF ME . MY GREAT GRANDMA WAS SITTING ON THE COUCH ONE DAY AROUND THE SPRING TIME IN 2012 AND SHE LOST ALL CONNECTION SHE LOST THE ABILITY TO SPEAK AND COULD UNDERSTAND  ME I WAS YELLING AT HER AND SHE HAD A STROKE WHEN I WAS HOME WITH HER . NOT LONG AFTER THAT SHE PASSED AWAY PEACFULY AT MY HOUSE . MY GRANDPA WAS SO SICK AT THE TIME . GRANDPA WASNT DOING WELL . THIS PAST JANUARY 27 2013 MY GRANDPA PASSED AWAY I WAS AT WORK AND MY MOM CALLED ME AND TOLD ME TO GET THERE NOW . THIS WAS THE HARDEST THING THAT I HAD TO DEAL WITH BECAUSE I LOST 2 IMPORTANT PEOPLE WITH IN A YEAR AND THAT WAS SO HARD FOR MY FAMILY  . I LOVE AND MISS YOU BOTH . IT'S HARD TO LOOSE SOMEBODY THAT YOU LOVE BUT I FEEL AS IF MY HEART WAS RIPPED OUT . WHEN THIS HAPPEND IN MY LIFE I DID CARE WHAT I ATE I DIDN'T CARE WHAT I HAD I NEVER ATE MEAT BUT I WOULD NOT TAKE FORMULA BECAUSE I WAS SO HURT BUT I AM CHANGING THAT NOW . I WAS MAD THAT I LOST MY GRANDPA AND I JUST DID NOT CARE ABOUT MY DIET . BUT I AM TRYING TO TURN THAT ALL AROUND NOW THIS IS GOING TO BE HARD TO GET BACK ON TRACK BUT I AM DOING IT FOR MY GREAT GRANDMA AND GRANDPA I LOVE AND MISS THEM ALOT .. I AM DOING IT FOR THEM IT'S WHAT THEY WOULD WANT ME TO DO                                                                                 RIP NOVELLA  M SETTLES AND WORLD GREATEST GRANDPA                                                                                            CHARLES LESTER SETTLES I                                                                                                    WE ALL LOVE YOU BOTH AND MISS YOU AND YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN                                                                                                LOVE ALWAYS BJ MACHOWICZ 
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